(I took this photo as the sun was rising on an overnight train from Bangkok to Chiang Mai, Thailand. Quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson) 


rage in the age

I love this new John Mayer song (slash whole new album) called 'Age of Worry'. As I've matured in my faith I think that I've gone from uneducated to freakin' rocking on the not worrying. I don't get strung up over things because God is the one with the cards and He knows when to hold them or when to fold them - not me. 

I do get scared though, in fact I have many fears, namely spiders, heights, and the dark. But I like to think this is very separate from the above. I'm hoping you do too, or else my balloon is pretty much popped in shreds on the floor.

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?"
- Matthew 6:25-27

Alive in the age of worry
Smile in the age of worry
Go wild in the age of worry
And sing Worry, why should I care?

Don't be scared to walk alone
Don't be scared to like it
There's no time that you must be home
So sleep where your darkness falls.

Alive in the age of worry
Rage in the age of worry
Sing out in the age of worry
And sing Worry, why should I care?
- Age of Worry, John Mayer



My worst ever night with God, was literally the worst ever night - bottom of the pit, swirling in a pool of anger, yell at a chair, type of worst ever night. I was mad, I was selfish, I was unapproachable, I was unconsolable, and I was right.

But do you notice something about all that. It was my worst ever night with God. What's worse than worse ever? Nothing. 

Can you see it? 

Can you see what I'm saying?

I'm only guessing you answered 'no' to both these questions due to my poor writing. So read these lyrics below and hopefully you'll start to pick it up. Yes, it's a popular song and yes, the content is questionable but please forgive me because it's catchy and I like to bob my head to the tune. Also, it's kinda country sounding and I like me some country.

"So this is it? I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of that for this?
I miss my mum and dad for this?

No. When I see stars, that's all they are
When I hear songs, they sound like this one, so come on
Oh, come on. Oh, come on. OH COME ON!

Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from
Some terrible lies..."
- Some Nights, Fun.

I italicised and bolded the important bit so you wouldn't miss it. 
You see my worst night ever with God was literally the worst night ever. And you know what?!...you can't get lower than the bottom of the pit! It's like saying 'to infinity and beyond'...come on Buzz, what can possibly be beyond infinity?

And when you reach that lowest possible point, there's no where to go but back up. "You wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from some terrible lies." I thank God for my worst night ever because something amazing has come of it. I am less idealistic, I am more in love with Him, I am open to ideas and dreams other than my own, I feel a sense of maturity in my faith, I don't sweat the small things, etcetera, etcetera. And would you believe it...I'm okay. 

"Hallelujah, I'm caving in
Hallelujah, I'm in love again
Hallelujah, I'm a wretched man
Hallelujah, every breath is a second chance.
And I am always, I'm always, always Yours."
- Always, Switchfoot



In the secret of His presence, how my soul delights to hide.
Oh, how precious are the lessons which I learn at Jesus' side.
Earthly cares can never vex me, neither trials lay me low;
For when Satan comes to tempt me, to the secret place I go.

When my soul is faint and thirsty, underneath the shadow of His wing
There is cool and pleasant shelter, and a fresh and crystal spring.
And my Saviour rests beside me, as we hold communion sweet
If I tried I could not utter what He says when thus we meet.

Only this I know: I tell Him all my doubts, my griefs and fears;
Oh, how patiently He listens and my drooping soul he cheers.
Do you think He never reproves me? What a false friend he would be
If He never, never told me of the sins which He must see.

Would you like to know the sweetness of the secret of the Lord?
Go and hide beneath His shadow, this shall then be your reward.
And whenever you leave the silence of that happy meeting place,
You must mind and bear the image of the Master in your face.



I love taking photos.
I love quotes.
Put them together and what do you get...QUOTOS!
I will be starting to share some of the ones I've created.
(they're not that amazing, but I'm hoping I'll get better at it...)

(Photo taken on Waiheke Island, Auckland. Quote by Walt Whitman)


Bon Iver

Justin Vernon and Sean Carey at AIR Studios.

This is so amazing I nearly cried. Best 25 minutes ever spent. Liget.